September 22, 2004

I cannot get a grip of myself. I have been working for only a couple of hours and I feel as if the days has passed by. I am so sleep deprived. I am not an insomniac but as days go by I feel like I am becoming one. I never have experienced this sleep deprivation since my high school days. I was not studying though. It was more of room hopping. Chatting till the wee hours of the morning. Asking people to share ghost stories and all other stuff that "mature people" calls idiotic. As if they did not went through the same phase. Well times have passed and it is 10 years I have stepped to the great halls of a great school Many envied what we have but for me, it was not that easy. From the jolly facade, there was always that rebellious streak waiting to unleash. Did it ever want to unleash? Well, I was able to do normal things students studying in normal schools managed to achieve. There was a lot of disco and drinking with my friends outside school. The rebellious nature was in me after all. I was sleep deprived because of the partying but I never complained. Work, it changes a lot of perceptions though. You feel very old even if you are just what, working for two or three years. Deadlines, pressures, and all the crap that you have to take just to meet quotas. Hellish!

Well, at least the pay is good. Did the rebellious streak dies out because the pay is good and will i take my sleep deprivation to the doldrums. The answer is a no but we can keep it at bay. How I miss college where I sleep 10 hours a day without worrying not passing my subjects. Well, I was planning to work overtime today but I guess I wont. I will work overtime some other day when I have at least 8 hours of sleep. I will try it today though. Ciao for today.